The past few weeks I have been missing in action. There are a culmination of reasons why this is the case. The primary reasoning being that I’ve been overwhelmed. It’s not easy to admit that I’ve been doing too much but for a while that was very much the case. There were a few weeks that I felt completely spent, every single day I went to bed exhausted. I would wake up exhausted and eventually that caught up to me.
It caught up to me in the form of an allergy attack. While I’d like to believe that stress was the main factor in this attack, it’s unlikely. If it was stress induced, I’d be able to control and mitigate the likelihood of it happening again. However, that’s simply not the case. Allergies are something that have been elusive in my life. Controlling them isn’t as simple as avoiding triggers. It’s controlling stress, environment, physical health, and pure luck. That being said, stress is a factor. So it was time to reevaluate my priorities and put life back into perspective.
The most important thing to me will always be my health. That doesn’t mean that medical appointments always come first though. Right now, I need to finish school. I’m so close to being done. I will graduate in just a few short weeks. One three week summer course, two weeks of normal classes, and my undergraduate career is over. In order to successfully finish, I needed to eliminate other stressors. That included vision therapy for the time being. I had only done vision therapy for a few weeks. It proved to be significantly more challenging than I ever anticipated. That was not only mentally taxing but also physically. I made the decision to pause VT until school was over and I had more energy and effort to put forth in that regard.
Other medical things have to continue, that includes physical therapy for my hip. Right now, I’m ten weeks post op. Two weeks from now, I’m hoping to be able to start running once again. It’s something I’m missing intensely, especially as my stress level rises. I can feel it getting stronger every day. I feel continuously encouraged to see rehabilitation going well.
The big question I’m asking myself is “How do I move forward?” The truth is, I don’t know what’s in my best interest right now. Blogging has always been an outlet for me that has fulfilled a lot of needs. It also is a stepping stone on my journey to a career in Disability Studies. I don’t know what the future looks like for my blog. Here’s what I’d like; I’d like to still start a Youtube channel, I’d like to continue blogging and build my brand, and I’d like to continually be apart of a community that has supported me through an abundance of ups and downs.
Right now, I think I can get back to three blog articles a week. That feels somewhat daunting to me at this moment. I’m not sure that I’ll be as diligent as I was before. I’m still not through the thick of an intensely transitional period in my life. That being said, that’s my goal and that’s what I’d like. Thank you for being patient with me during this time. I appreciate the support and love.
I hope you’re having a great day! I hope your day is filled with joy, positivity, and laughter. I hope you find peace, love, and happiness.