I’ve been adamant throughout the pandemic that I didn’t want to get a job. With my health, it seemed foolish to put myself in a direct line of fire. The reality is, I can survive without a job. I have the luxury of family support and student loans, but that only gets me so far. Dreaming of graduate school has put life into perspective for me. I will have to get a job. I will have to navigate working life and school. I’d rather work out the kinks of that when I have a soft place to land rather than when I’m away from home.
I have a lot of fears about getting a job. I loved working in the past. I like having a schedule, work ethic, and being in a social environment. Not to mention, I like being self sufficient and being able to live comfortably with my own money. I realize that I’m speaking from a place of immense privilege but I’m simply trying to share my perspective.
Prior to being sick, I worked two jobs during the summer. I saved up enough money to live on all year round while I was at school. I’ve never tried to balance school and work at the same time. When I got sick, I could barely manage school. I was in and out of the hospital so often that I did online classes. Surgeries and hospitalizations prevented me from even considering getting a job.
Now, I’m a year post any hospitalization. I had six surgeries last year. Now, I only have one more on the horizon. This is the most plausible time to get a job. I can save for graduate school while living at home. I can learn how to navigate a workplace with Crush. I can work in an environment that can provide me emergency services, if I need them. Fingers crossed I don’t but I live in a world of prepare for the worst, hope for the best.
My point is, it’s time. I want a job. I love working. Covid has made me miss the outside world. I am taking a risk but I have to look at the picture as a whole. Everything in my life, the way I see it, is a risk analysis. I can’t always predict when I’ll flare and have problems. Right now, is the best time to try things out. I can see how they go in a relatively safe and controlled environment. I can’t promise everything won’t go horribly wrong, but it’s a risk I’ll have to take at some point. I might as well take it now because I have a support system to help me through it.
I hope that you’re having a great day. I hope that your day is filled with joy, positivity, and laughter. I hope that you find peace, love, and happiness.